Where is God leading me?

Good Evening All!

I am not sure how much time I have to write as it really is past my children's bedtimes and they are ALL still up.  It's almost summer isn't it?  They can stay up late right?  UGH, remind me I said that tomorrow morning when they are all whining and tired from not enough sleep.

So, without going into too much detail, my life and my family life seems to be in upheaval lately.  Things at my husband's company are really weird right now, my son and his school seems to be even weirder and to top it all off, people seem to be contacting me out of the woodwork for odd reasons.  God, what are you doing in my life right now?!  Where are you leading me, my husband and our family?!

To top everything off, I am sure Steve and I should be stressed out but, oddly, we are at peace, unexplainable peace.  Truly, I haven't felt this kind of peace since I was un-married and pregnant with out my baby's father anywhere in sight and I had really no job...yet I had an unexplainable peace.  I was calm, I wasn't upset, I was peaceful.  Same here now.  Truly I feel like I am almost floating along, it is a really weird feeling.  Almost an out of body type feeling.

God seems to truly be at work in my life right now, I am definitely feeling his hand guide me and my family.  To where, I have no idea but, he is in control and I am releasing all control to him.  It is a very freeing experience!  I keep thinking I should be nervous, afraid of the unknown, I feel like I should be panicking at times, I feel like, there is no reason I should have any sort of peace in my life yet, I do.

Have you ever just let God control everything in your life?  It is weird, just last week I was feeling so disconnected with the Lord, I specifically remember praying to him last week that I needed his guidance and I needed to feel him again because I was feeling so far away from him and I wanted him to bring me back close to him.  Well, be careful for what you pray for because here I am life is stressful, seemingly falling apart in many areas and yet here is God walking, guiding, and leading me and my husband every step of the way.

I have NO idea where God is going to lead us now but, he has never failed us, he has never left us and he has always been faithful and he has always provided.  I trust in him and now, like an amusement park ride through a maze of ups and downs and turns and darkness leading into bright lights, God is ever faithful and carrying me through life.

Thank you God for protecting us once again and I don't know where you are taking me or my husband but, I know you have a plan.  You are putting great people into our lives, you are opening up many doors and I know you will help us decide which is the right door to go through for our next phase in life, whatever that is.

I love God and I am in awe of his grace and peace!

Blessings to you all!

-Liza