Good Evening Everyone!
I couldn't do it, I couldn't wait any longer to write! I am going nuts trying to build my own website for my new blog and frankly, it is very frustrating. I just want to write, I don't want to be a computer programmer!
Life has been so great the past couple of weeks, yes things are still stressful with hubby's job and life is still busy with 4 great little people however, last week and this week have been awesome! Last week our Kindergartner was on Spring Break and this week she is back at school and my 3rd and 1st Graders are out! But, as most of you know my 6 year old only goes to Kindergarten MWF so, today was a glorious day of nothing to do but, hang out and have fun! Top off the no schedules, no stress weeks and we are watching our friends dog Toffee for 10 days while they are in Florida. He has been quite the addition to our little family and frankly, I am going to miss the guy when he goes.
So, as my husband is really starting to worry about me getting a 2nd dog, in addition to our cat and our 2 hermit crabs on top of the 4 children and our 2200 sq ft house, life is good. I also started taking Ritalin last week again for the first time since 2005. It has helped me so much with just relaxing and being able to enjoy the day and enjoy my children. It hasn't cured our over-cluttered house issue but, it is helping me at least start one project and actually stick with that project and not get bored! I even finished an entire load of dishes one day, truly a miracle there people. Yes, dishes are so insanely boring to me, I often quit with only one glass left, or quit clearing the table with just silverware left after clearing about 20 dishes and glasses off.
Yep, this momma is actually starting to FINISH some things! Granted, I am still tackling WAY too big of jobs but, it is ok, the stress is gone and my head is clearer. Although, I have discovered that part of what made me a blogger was those scattered thoughts running rampant through my head 24/7. I might need to become a late night blogger instead, after the pills have worn off and my mind has had time to fill itself up again. My mind still races while laying in bed so, I have found myself needing to go to bed a bit later or SUPER tired otherwise, I just lay there with a million things running laps in my head, driving me nuts.
I even find my temper a bit more in check on Ritalin. I know, I am such a hypocrite. Here I am that mom that says over and over again, no drugs, no drugs, no drugs, clean living, good diet and no drugs. I still believe parents should try to avoid putting their children on drugs at all cost. As it has been proven that drugs like Ritalin and Adderall change the physiological make up of the brain in children which is NOT a good thing.
However, no such testing has shown that happening in adult brains(when adults start taking those drugs). Also, frankly I am truly experimenting right now. I started taking Ritalin because I thought I was going to be homeschooling my son starting next Monday for the rest of the year and I knew I didn't have the patience nor the discipline to be able to do it all without a bit of 'help'. I truly found myself at the end of my rope, many times and found myself over-whelmed and over-stressed and frankly very short in my temper. It wasn't fair to my children and my son truly needs a more organized home, schedule and life so, I am trying this drug thing to see how it goes.
Obviously as with everything, I will let you all know how it is going. I plan to only take it until June and maybe try it again in September as I don't need to be organized in the summer! Hence why these past two weeks have been such a delight to our family. No evening activities, no school, very little homework and just fun.
Off to bed I go, I think I am finally tired enough to calm my brain enough to fall asleep.
Blessings to you all!
-Liza
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