Good morning everyone!
I first have to tell you all, my baby, she went to bed last night at 7pm and got up for her normal 11pm feeding(a very quick one) and then slept in this morning until almost 8am!!!!!!! Plus, then she went back down for her morning nap at 9am. My husband and I have always said, "with sleep, you get sleep". So true. I am so pleased with my beautiful baby girl.
Isn't it amazing how your children sleep can affect your mood/day?!
The world looks so good to me today :-)
Ok, on to my subject....getting old...ok, sorry, I should be a little kinder and say, getting older. However, frankly, I am just getting old!
Those laugh lines aren't going away anymore when I am not laughing, those frown lines in the forehead are getting a little deeper, there are more spots on my face, it takes a lot more to lose those couple pounds, and the most dreaded....the boobs just don't seem to be as 'perky' as they once were. Oh ladies, you all are going through similar things, I don't think this is too shocking. Except for, I never really thought it would happen to me. Yes, I guess I was living in lala land.
I think the ultimate thing that might just throw me over the edge is when the gray hairs start coming in and I am going to have to start dyeing my hair. Blech. I was telling my girlfriend this the other day, there are NO good red head dye jobs...none! They all look fake and they all wash out so fast or fade really bad. Plus, you can always tell when someone is dyeing their hair when they have red hair. So, do I go back to being a blond then? Do I try and defy the odds and dye my hair red, or do I go with that dreaded gray? I don't know, I sort of predict myself changing hair colors a lot as that is what I did for years when I used to dye my hair. By the way, dumb but, I used to dye my hair blond! How dumb is that when I have a really pretty color of red naturally?!
Oh, all the things we need to start thinking of as we age. Long gone are the days of me getting carded. Yep, gone. It actually was just a couple years ago that I used to get carded every time my husband and I went out or I went to the liquor store...now, nothing. The only time they ask for my ID is to compare my credit card.
I have also been studying my girlfriends faces a little bit more in photos...rest ladies...just the people I have known for years! I keep an eye on their faces now more than I ever look at their figures. I need to see how I am aging compared to them and if I need to take drastic measures.
Oh, by the way, I AM that shallow. Sorry, it is true. I am very vain. You would never know it as I am the last one to actually spend time trying to do my hair, put on make-up, or even find a great outfit....that is all pure laziness on my part. But, that is it. If I wasn't so lazy and so gosh darn cheap, I would out-dress you all! LOL.
I have quietly started looking for glimpses into my friends faces, are they having anything done yet, do they look the same? Yep, they look the same, aging terrifically, oh gosh, I need to do something about myself!
So, I keep applying my creams, wrinkle reducers, lotions, make-up in just the right areas. All trying to disguise or put off those dreaded wrinkles and saggy skin.
Now, I know I am horribly naive. Really, always have been! You could get me to believe just about anything because I am truly a very trusting person and it rarely occurs to me that someone could be lying. So, I believe, I believe, I believe that none of my friends are doing anything to their bodies or faces. And then......
....the 25 things you didn't know about me post hits face book. OH MY GOSH! Some of my friends are doing stuff to themselves! Oh I feel cheated! I feel robbed! I feel....oh no, I am behind the game! See, this is where my vanity comes in.
So, I inquire, I ask questions, I need all the information I can get. Because as plain Jane as I seem to be, act, and look, I really have all intent of having work done eventually. I just didn't expect people to be doing it in their 30's. I was hoping to put things off until my 40's at least!
I will say also, I am A LOT of talk. Yes, in my head I think I will eventually have that tummy tuck, a little bit of lypo here and there, Botox, laser hair removal, face rejuvenations, and such. Nothing too drastic, nothing too major, just little things here and there. Nothing that will change my look as I like how I look but, just a little 'refresher' here and there. However, I know me too well. I am a scaredy cat. Totally. Plus, again, the cheap factor comes into play here too.
But, I am interested, very interested in Botox....seems intriguing. I am OVERLY interested and actively looking into Laser hair removal...oh yes ladies, you know. After having children, all of those extra hormones running through your bodies, especially after having boys....there is a lot of hair sometimes. It needs to go away! Plus, it changes and frankly, I want it to go away. Plus, I am a red head, shaving doesn't do my skin any justice. Neither does waxing. So, removing things forever, YES!
However, I hear there is a pain factor to consider and yes, I had 4 children but, not sure if I can handle the pain of hair removal.
So, back to Botox...could I, should I, would I? These are all questions I have been asking myself. There really is only one wrinkle that bothers me enough to put fake things in my body. Yes, that is one of my major hurdles in plastic surgery too. I don't want anything fake in my body.
However, the day they come up with a way to put (pardon my words here) my a$$ into my boobs, sign me up! I would love to go from an A-/B+ (a's too small/b's too big) to a nice full C, maybe even a small D! Bring it on! Why do you think I keep having babies and nurse them so long?! hahahaha, ok, that is a joke but, really, who doesn't love their 'nursing boobs'?!! I love being a C/D when nursing, it is fun and I actually can 'fill out' a top now with more than just my belly :-)
But, back to reality here...I don't think I could ever actually do a boob job as I don't like things in my body. I feel like I have a responsibility to my children and frankly, I have 3 girls, what sort of an example am I setting for them if I have big ole boobs? Now....for those of you who have them, don't get me wrong, I DON'T see anything wrong with them, just not for me....yet.
Besides, I try to limit plastic as much as I can from our home, and our lives, why would I put it inside of my body?!
So, the tummy tuck, I would be all over but, another thing comes into play here....how can I justify the risk of surgery just for something cosmetic? I can't. Granted now, if anything happened to me, I would be dead but, still....I could never forgive myself for depriving my children of their mom just for dumb selfish thing like a tummy tuck. However, oh, I would really like to have one!
I already have it planned how I would do it. I would take a 'trip' a spa trip and stay at one of the places that do the surgery and then help you after wards. I would more than likely have my face worked on a little bit and maybe even do some of the laser hair removal while I was under. I mean, if I am going to be under, do as much as I can safely so I don't have to deal with the pain!
So, now most of you know I have NEVER, EVER been away from my children...ever!!!! I have never taken a trip without them and have yet to spend an entire 24 hours away from any of them. So, if you see me take off for a week some day...you will be able to have a little giggle to yourself knowing I am probably on my spa trip.
I know that this entire blog is so wrong and I am sorry. I really am not consumed by all of this, or really that vain. However, it has been something in the back of my head and after hearing of some of my friends doing little things here and there, I became a little more curious.
I am very curious to see if I would actually spend the money, the time, and the pain and effort to do something or if I will just do what most people in the past have done and just try and grow old gracefully.
I don't know, only time will tell. Will I be that crazy old lady with the horrible dye job? Will I have boobs down to my knees? Will I have more cracks and crevices in my face than the Grand Canyon? Again, I don't know but, it is interesting to be in this place in life where these things actually are becoming a reality.
I need to get my 5 year old to the Y for swimming lessons. Blessings to you all!
Love your horribly vain friend,
Liza